Death Cafe profile for Megan

Location: United States

About Megan :

I am neurodivergent so I may need more direct communication to understand you clearly 

What brings you to Death Cafe?

My story is complicated 

ive lived with a chronic illness that puts me at risk for devloping cancer. I'm also neurodivergent (autistic to be specific) and studies show autistic people are at a higher risk of earlier death. Basically death is something I've been aware of for a long time and have developed an intense exestential awareness of death recently. this has lead to an existential anger that I can't know for sure what will happen after death and if it will be better than this life. 

What would you like your legacy to be?

I suppose I'd like my legacy to be as a writer since I express myself better in writing then in speech. 

Megan 's posts on the Death Cafe website

New Blog post: Fear of a near death experience

Posted by Megan on May 31, 2025, 11:32 a.m.

I'm scared of having a near death experience. I've been reading all about them and the changes they can bring people and that is so scary for me to think of. I'm afraid of loosing who I am here and now I've really come to like who I am and love my life and the thought of being a changed person after an NDE scares me greatly. I'm afraid that ...

New Blog post: Scared of karma and reincarnation

Posted by Megan on May 19, 2025, 8:56 a.m.

I'm so scared of karma and reincarnatio. I've had alot of struggle and mistakes in my life and I'm scared of how my mistakes and struggles and negative choices could affect my next incarnation. I'm also scared that my anxious thoughts could effect my next incarnation especially since I've dwelled on them and at times have sought reassurance to try and prove that there not true or won't happen ...

New Blog post: Existential anger

Posted by Megan on May 14, 2025, 3:58 p.m.

Recently my life has been going pretty well. Then that's why I've been having such existential dread and anger about death I find myself frequently trying to find reassurance of what comes after death. I've heard so many theories but none of them can be easily proven or confirmed. I've read about near death experiences but none of thoes provide for certian answers. I just keep imagining and having all of ...