Pulse

So i don't know how long I have been feeling fear of death. Off and on for awhile.. But lately i feel like its more.. I check my pulse all the time.. Everytime i am too hot or too cold i freak out.. I am afraid to fall asleep.. For fear of death.  I am afraid to move or breath sometimes.. I used to like horror movies.. But anytime i watch them now i get freaked out.  The more i freak out the more stressed out i get.  I have a 13 year old who has autism i dont think he would even check on me.. But i try to move on n some days are better than others.. But lately the feeling is getting more and more.  I don't know what to do or how to handle it.. I normally am the sane one the one who didn't care abour death.. But now i do.  I don't have a glamorous life. I work at a retail store. I don't have much money. Dying wouldn't mean anything to anyone except my family.  Anyway this is my first blog. So i am signing off for now.  

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I am just beginning my journey to understand how i feel about death. Like others it surfaced when my son died tragically at age 17, 2 months before high school graduation. I don't know how to fear death. I guess I hope not to be able to. Now that he is gone I often say I could be with him, so I don't fear it at all, but wonder sometimes if that is totally true.

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