Posted by brantleyrose
Deliverance in Christ Jesus
Isaiah 55:7 "Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon."
With a sorrowful heart, turn to the Lord and he will provide relief in this life; and Life everlasting in the next one. Read Psalm 51, Romans 3, John 3.
John 3:16 - For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believeth on Him should not perish but have everlasting life
Posted by Bill
Gave a good read
Posted by Lara Johnson
Reading your account of events brought up two possible reasons for your suffering, and three things that I might try if I was in your situation.
First of all, please let me acknowledge that unbearable state of mental agony you had in 2004-2010. I believe that I may have experienced something similar, but only for a brief period (maybe an hour or two) while under the influence of a mind-altering substance. If it was anything like what I endured (and I knew it would end once the substance wore off), I can imagine how scary it would be to go back into that state, or the thought of being stuck in it forever after death.
Consciousness is the ultimate mystery. From the time of Descartes separating body and mind, our species has grappled with this question. So the two possibilities that i can come up with, for why that happened to you, are 1) Something in the Body -- when you trace back to 2004, how was your diet? Could you have had a vitamin deficiency (severe B12 or folate deficiencies can lead to psychosis) were you using any illicit drugs/alcohol? Did you have any kind of head trauma, severe infections, or autoimmune/neurological issues? Has anyone in your family gone through a similar state around the age you were at that time?
The second possibility is 2) Something not in the Body -- I am not sure if you subscribe to any formal spiritual beliefs, but there is a mind-body connection which is indisputable. Was there something that affected you on a non-physical level at that time, perhaps a trauma, recounting of that trauma, major life transition for you or your loved ones? Or a transition in your own spiritual beliefs/beliefs about your life at that time?
These are all questions for you to explore if you would find it helpful. The 3 suggestions I have for you, which I offer only because you have requested it (so take all with a grain of salt and discard if it's no longer relevant to you).. are 1) explore these questions regularly with someone you trust, perhaps a therapist if you don't have one already. 2) clarify your spiritual beliefs after death. do you think consciousness remains, and where does it go? do your best to find answers to this. 3) talk to your psychiatrist about which meds can be tapered slowly, and track any changes in mood or that scary feeling returning--you can always go back to a prior dose, but tapering slowly and no longer needing the meds will improve your confidence in your body's ability to heal. Oftentimes the high levels of meds are necessary for a crisis, but can be tapered as time goes on.
Hope this provides some comfort and clarity for you. Take good care of yourself and your daughter; how lovely to hear she has been happy and that you've been able to care for her despite all this. Sending warm thoughts and gentle prayers,
Posted by Chirashi